No cliff in sight

Thinking healthier today : )

Had an ecouraging and uplifting Weight Watchers meeting this evening. Scale reported I went down 1.2 pounds.
Another 2.6 pounds to lose to receive my NEXT  blue ribbon! 
I bought a box of "yummies" at the WW meeting for this weekend. I'll be retreating with a whole group of gals, and that means snackies and chocolate. I'm planning ahead to bring my own.

It's Up to Me

In a bad place today. It feels like I'm standing on the edge. I have reasons for returning to "using" food in my former ways. Reasons ... but reasons are not excuses. No matter what I did yesterday, I can choose NOT to fall today. All I have to do is to step back ... and then walk away.

To walk to the edge is not the same as jumping over the edge. No one actually FALLS over. They intentionally jump.

Whatever It Takes

My current strategy ... drink WATER constantly : ) Between meals, after meals and before I eat something. I'm also drinking a couple cups of hot herbal tea everyday. Lots of trips to the bathroom, but worth it !

I decided to focus on mangoes as my "splurge" food choice, since I am experiencing a new obsession with them : )

Definitely MUST focus on other things (intentionally) than food. Funny how a multitude of opportunities present themselves when I stop thinking about food .. some are fun (woo woo!) and others are important (not so fun) things that I have been avoiding.

2011

Today is 1-11-11, if that's not a great day to get back to blogging, I don't know what is! I'm elated to have lost 30 pounds (more if you count the ones I lost after gaining some), in 2010. I charted the ups and downs of my journey so far, which was very encouraging! Weighing out the losses and gains from Nov. 2010 through Jan. 1, 2011 ... I ended up with a gain of just 2.6 pounds !! That's incredible !!

Since I hit my one year anniversary with Weight Watchers (1-4-10), I decided to celebrate by purchasing a three month tracker for myself! Woo ! then discovered that just because I have one, doesn't make me use it on a daily basis.

Last night's weigh-in resulted in a 2 pound loss. I'm 8 pounds away from the next blue ribbon (awarded with each 10 pounds lost). That's my goal for now.

Struggling

I'm struggling with a desire to wander (or run) out of my own boundaries. I sense the need (is it REALLY a need?) to eat something without having to limit the amount. There's a restlessness inside me.

Went to the store this evening to stock up on yummy fruit and veggies. THEN ... that craving set in. I HAD to find something there that I knew I would binge on. I chose a bag of sweet potato chips seasoned with cinnamon and some fat free fig newtons. I ate the whole bag of chips and approx. 8 of the newtons. Did it calm the beast within? For a while it did. I've been practicing NOT feeling guilty after eating (which often leads to another binge), so that didn't happen.

7 Weeks to Goal

Weigh In: down 1.6 pounds

Bravo sharing: I got my sexy back! (an attitude)

Tip I shared: that I made a food flashcard (of a Thanksgiving Dinner) so that I could look at it and tell myself that it's just food. I tend to see the food (in person) and am so awestruck by the sight of it that it throws my "plan of attack" into a curve. I don't want to see and say " stuffing!!" like it's a long lost friend of mine. I may eat stuffing once a year, but I could make it any time I want to on my own.

Right now I could start to salivate just thinking about pumpkin pie with whipped cream on top! That just won't do. Nope. When that certain day comes and I have the option of eating pie, among other delicacies, I want it to feel like just another food choice (not PUMPKIN PIE Oh Baby!!!)

8 Weeks to Goal

up .4 pounds

Was I fooling myself to think that I COULD actually lose all the way through the holidays?

eating challenge this coming week: a big, family, Italian style, pot-luck meal (garlic bread !! and some kind of dessert too!!)